Feb 21, 2023
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Hi! Everybody! Welcome to fabulously Candace! We're on season 3
apple 2, and I have the most fabulous woman here with me today.
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Hi! Alright lovely to meet you
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Okay.
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This is Jenny Meadows. Hi, Jenny, yeah, it's lovely to meet you,
and you just look just so beautiful with your background and your
jewelry and everything.
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Oh, thank you!
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So I'm so excited to talk with you today. Let me brag about you
first.
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Oh, Jenny is an a neuro different individual who's been through the
whole neurotypical spectrum of dating.
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So dating. Marriage, procreation, divorce, post, divorce, dating
before your self realization of who and what you are.
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Yeah. And so today, we're going to be talking about what it's like
to be in your fifties and neurotic and dating
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It's a minefield
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Hmm.
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Had some. I love that so welcome, Jenny. I absolutely love that you
reached out to me because I we were just saying we're both
aquarium.
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So we've got our amethyst birthstones.
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My birthday is Tuesday. Your birthday is Wednesday, so we've got
some connection already.
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Alright. Yeah.
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All these 49, and you'll be 53, or 50.
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53,
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Look at you go. Yeah. So let's start. Were you adult?
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Diagnosed or late diagnosed. And is it audistic? Tell me what your
diagnosis was or
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Oh, interesting, I'm in a very interesting position. So I was
actually diagnosed.
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Adhd. Private back in 2,021, after I had a diagnosis of just back
here back in 2019.
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So actually, I studied a masters in photography. So I'm a
photographer.
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Wow!
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Yeah.
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And part of the kind of screening process. When you go into, you
need I do the configuration screening, but it actually came up
diagnosed just back here, and then I had in the report cause I
do.
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That that's my Co. Educational report, that showing strong symptoms
of both Adhd and autism.
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But the assessment could not actually diagnosed me because she
wasn't qualified to diagnose.
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Wow!
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So I was like, but that's how it works in the Uk.
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I don't know how it works in America or elsewhere.
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We have to be qualified in order to make the diagnosis, and you
know the autism diagnosis you have to have that 2 psychiatrists, I
believe, and then I should know, because I've actually up today
I've just known I've cost my level to
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Understand the autism calls. I thank you. Thank you.
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Wow! Congratulations!
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But then I'm still off in a tangent
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Like came up in that report but that kind of held out held out and
I was getting quite a lot of support, because in England there's a
thing of the same student allowance.
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Okay.
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So, if you have certain, you know difficulties with studying, so
you get to report to you, especially as counselor.
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All this sort of stuff, and I kind of held out to 2021, and then I
was doing it part times.
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I had like 3 modules coming in together, and I just I need
help.
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Sorry the Adhd diagnosis got the diagnosis.
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Hmm.
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Was described Elvant, which I didn't agree with, had a really bad
time on it, and, in fact, there's a lovely I take it you're
familiar with Leon.
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My school.
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No same same work.
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Oh, yeah, okay. So she had a very similar experience. I need to
talk about her later on.
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Say her name again. Maybe I am
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Leon, my school, the one that's done the Eightys of Adhd.
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Okay. Yes. Her. Yes. Yes. Okay. Yes, from Linkedin. Yes.
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Yup, that she's great
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Yes, yes, yeah. Yeah. And then, yeah, I'm all right.
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Per experience of being privately diagnosed. Given lots of drugs, I
mean, I lost, I mean, I didn't put on wakes.
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Wow!
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I was with somebody, but I actually lost 15 helos because of the
reactions for medication.
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And then I kind of hopefully and announced, luckily I then got
together with my adult Adhd support group called past mine, and
they help me with the right to choose options.
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Yeah.
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I thought I need to get this thought it because, going privately is
what I run out funds to actually continue the titration.
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So I've waited for October 21 to twenty-fourth of August.
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First one through the Nhs went through that process, and
unfortunately, then, the diagnosis was I wasn't affected enough by
Adhd.
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Wow!
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Oh, my goodness!
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But this is okay. I'm not gonna go into too much detail, because
I'm having to make a the professor.
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Hmm.
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Let's just say that she should not be doing that particular role
because a fellow member of my group, Pat had a very similar
experience with this individual.
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Hmm.
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Wow!
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So actually, yeah, that's by the by. So now, I'm kind of stuck with
the Adhd.
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But without the help
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Yeah.
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And it's really, it's really bad. At the moment in the Uk.
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And that response
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Yeah, Jenny, what a process! What a process!
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By that. Yeah, I did actually go alright. And then in 25 that I
discovered autism in spurges back in 2,011.
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Hmm.
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So that the work of is it, Rudy Smart?
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Hmm.
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She was very much prevalent around about 2011, and wrote a lot of
that with Virgin.
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She wasn't actually like a dimension, but he wrote a lot about
having
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Yeah, she knew a lot. Right? Yeah.
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And then I had a bit of a breakdown in 2,014, which actually
realize now is due to the by fund diagnosed.
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Adhd autism plus menopause
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Exactly.
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Yeah, which no one talks about. By the way, no one talks about the
effects of menopause
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And especially if you are Adhd, because it's very much controlled
by hormones as well.
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Wow! Wow!
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So I went through the autistic diagnostic process in 2,015, and I
wasn't deemed then affected enough by, because then I wasn't aware
of Adhd. And as you know, if you have both how they can hmm was
kind of for each other out
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Not. Wow, yeah, they do. They? They just contradict each other.
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And then it's like, and they can actually work together.
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Yes.
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If you get the right, and you've got the right support.
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Yes.
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But then they quite together as well
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Well, and let's add, in the piece of being female, I really believe
that those of us that are that identify as female, you know,
especially we.
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Yeah.
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We learned a mask right? And so it is harder and that's why we have
so many.
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I really think we're doing a lot of. We're seeing a lot more self
diagnosis because of what you're just describing where these
assessors are qualified.
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They're not. They're not aware of what it looks like, you know.
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It doesn't look a certain way. First and foremost, and our traits
are very different.
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What by the time we become adults, because we've been masking.
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And so I, I, yeah, I mean, I just think I have so much compassion
for you, for what you've gone through, because this is the story of
so many adults that I hear from it's just this long process.
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Yeah, yeah.
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And then how you said you're told by someone else that you're not
affected enough, which is so offensive
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It's like, I just wanna grab them by the neck.
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And go. Okay. You have no idea what I've been through.
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Yes. No. Idea. Yeah.
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Yes, yes, yes.
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I also the other issue is, if you look a certain way, your blonde
head, your blue eye, it's like you all you kind of go under the
radar.
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Yes.
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But then there's that now the events of jobs that I go because I've
looked so like I used to work in pr marketing.
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Yup!
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Yeah.
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Sorry to present really well in an instant, and I'd be it's a bit
like, actually, this will be like dating.
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Yes, which I'm excited to talk about. You are. Yeah.
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And then it's called, and then you're kind of little quirks.
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Yeah.
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Hmm.
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Come out, and they kind of like oh, don't like this, and it's like
you're not the person they interviewed when and it's almost like
dating as well when you know, guys like kind of chatting you off in
the bar.
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And it's like one of the other things I find I'm really really bad
at understanding the subtle.
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Yeah.
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You know the the the uploading? I don't remember each like a quite
a few times, but actually I I pulled
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Well, let's talk about that because I you're on to something here,
and it's a beautiful, beautiful segue into dating.
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You know the work environment. Again, we do mass quite well. I work
for myself, for a reason, and I I, when I finally came out now it's
5 years after diagnosis where I came out to my staff because I was
really struggling with my staff in terms of emotional dysregulation
and I was
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Oh!
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having meltdowns, and really just struggling with overwhelming, and
not, you know, anyway.
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So when I was able to get the diagnosis, and then talk to my staff,
there was a lot of compassion, and then I surrounded myself with
people that are very trustworthy.
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But also that saw my strengths, but also saw my soft spots and
said, Okay, I'll step in where you have soft spots to gotta help
you and make those a accommodations which I appreciate one be my
husband.
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Thank goodness! But when we were dating it was similar, so you
know, we're very attracted to each other and first date, you know,
a couple of glasses of wine.
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Things are going well, you know, as an autistic female, I love to
take a deep dive into conversation.
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Yep. Yep.
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I'm not about superficial. Yeah? And and he actually really liked
that.
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He was really attracted to that because he hadn't been with other
women, that I also was very loyal I had.
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I mean, it's just like all the things right. My autism shining
through.
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But then, as we started dating and got more serious, I would have
more meltdowns because of the environment.
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And then it was like, what's happening. Who's this person?
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And so I'm curious about that. Let's talk about that in terms of
post-divor getting back in the dating scene.
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How will were you when you got divorced? If that's okay, that I
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Alright! My husband! Now we got together in 2,000. We've been
married in 2,003, have my daughter 2,005 separated 2,014, and then
oh, post!
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And it was kind of difficult or not difficult so you know, a few
guys like socially.
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And then what was quite oh, I had a big period where I just didn't
say anybody, and that was in.
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Like, took a break
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But yeah, but it was in early twenty-fifty.
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Hmm.
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That's when I had a you know I lost yes, or another job, and also
had a healthcare, and so I was dealing with that things.
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Wow! Hmm!
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Wow!
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I found a lump of my breast in. Is that the 2,014 I'm this was just
before Christmas, and then I had.
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Wow!
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It as if you're familiar with Eastenders is a lot of real but I had
my scan on the morning of Christmas Eve, and they weren't able to
take to check it properly.
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Because I didn't have the stuff at that time. So I had to wait
through Chris.
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Hmm.
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Luckily it was just a safe. Oh, that was okay.
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But it was just that time thank God, I'm a single mom.
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Yeah.
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And then I found out I lost my job because I didn't make the
question period.
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Yeah.
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Beginning in 2,015. It just when everything just went flat.
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But then actually, I kind of got back and on my feet and realized
that actually, this is probably happening for a good reason.
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But then I said the best. It was like 3 months with clearing the
garden.
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Yeah. Yeah. Great way to look at it.
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Exactly. But then, actually, I interestingly, I reconnected with a
an individual that I went to union with.
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Hmm.
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I in between 96 and 99, which is an interesting thing
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I kind of it was
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Yes. One of those an individual that we just got each other.
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But for various reasons it hasn't. They didn't work out.
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But then I kind of get my toe into like the the online dacing
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And that was
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What's what's that? A whole other world
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That was because then I kind of realized
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Hmm.
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How many kind of shops there were out there, and you have to be, as
you know, being abandonment issues.
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And feeling of affection, and the dopamine, or all this and those
those apps are designed for.
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You know. Then, like Adhd, hey, does it work?
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Yeah. Oh, yeah.
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Okay, yeah, so I kind of went on a few date.
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But nothing really stuck, and then 27 team, does it?
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Yeah, the few. But it just Germany is like, you know, you chat to
someone.
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Yeah, yeah.
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You kind of filter out the ones who send the inappropriate
images.
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But then, actually, what was quite interesting, but then met my
long term.
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Oh!
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X. But it was actually through work. So I was working for the
agency that did holidays like photography, and we were looking for
photographers.
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So his details came up, and we so I thought, oh, I know you could
be potential for this agency.
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And how we got tracking, and then was quite interesting.
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My site. Linkup arranged London to Brighton bike bride
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Hmm! That's fun!
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And then you know how to really good fun. Bye, put it on Instagram,
and then you thought, oh, you're in Brighton.
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Bye, bye, let's meet for drink.
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So we might as let me invite gear, or Swissy
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The perfect dating gear.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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I'll tell you how my ex husband, anyway, and then we told that we
checked it, and it was that kind of you know, when you like, start
talking to someone, and because he he's Italian, he's a I would
call him a bit of a Marconi.
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Hmm.
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If that makes sense and I it definitely on the spectrum.
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And definitely Adhd like when he was talking, said, Oh, you know
I'm not bipolar and Pennsylvania, because I've got all these like
voices in my
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So same. So he's also neuro. Different. Right? Is that what you're
saying?
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Correct.
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Yeah, sure.
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So there was a connection. So let's let's pause, because you're
saying you've said so many things that are really want to hone in
on for those of us that are females.
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First of all, the the we know that like you said, loss of
employment, something that happens for a lot of autistic
individuals.
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Hmm.
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Then a lot of people don't talk about parenting or single just the
challenges of parenting as an autistic eightyhd parent.
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Single parent menopause, again, is not only our our periods, or
what I call our moons more, I take kind of more just, really
honoring of our periods.
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So I call it our moons, and as do indigenous culture, but that and
menopause are really seen as just hush! Hush!
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In society, and especially for those of us that are narrow,
different. No one's talking about that.
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And then the challenges of being older and dating for anyone as
well as being neuro different.
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Hello! Oh.
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And so I love. I also want to say that when you talked about sharks
and having to be really careful online it it is really
challenging.
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Now I was not into. I I lost it, I think a day on online
dating.
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And I similar to you, Matt. Chris, my partner at work at the time,
and so that's a whole kind of a funny story.
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But one of the things we know with women in particular that are
autistic.
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We do struggle with reading the intentions of others.
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Okay.
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We know that with autistic individuals in general, and so we are
vulnerable period we're vulnerable.
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We're vulnerable that you know, being autistic is that it?
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We are vulnerable and vulnerable to getting in relationships where
we can be taken advantage of.
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We often are their their can be a lot of trauma involved in
that.
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So dating is challenging, and then the trauma of divorce again,
like all the things.
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So for you, finding someone who also has a similar brain must have
been just like a relief
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What kind of but then a kind of it didn't work out.
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Hmm.
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Unfortunately, and we picked up at the time when I was going
through getting the diagnosis, because I actually realized that I
could not deal with an undiagnosed on a way individual.
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Oh, okay, so he wasn't diagnosed. Oh, got it?
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But he wasn't diagnosed, but he was exhibiting trait.
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Okay.
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And this is the real difficulties. Like an individual and myself
included.
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If they're not self-aware of, then ui diversity.
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Yes. Yeah.
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And then they just do things blindly. So, for example, a really
good example of this was my fiftieth birthday.
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And I thought right. It was a Saturday. Go down pricing.
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Oh, yeah. I'll be spoiled so cool. Nice.
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Wow!
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To Secco cook some nice food, and he was working and he didn't
actually come back that night because he was so hyper focused at
work, cause he's a he might.
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He's like her electrical engineer found engineer person. He like
kind of makes the the motion captured. Well.
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Wow!
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But he actually stayed right, and that was me. On my fiftieth
birthday.
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Okay, with Mike Hi, Rebecca, my nice food.
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I like, okay.
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Yeah.
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So my rule is, if there is that attraction with a new idea of
individual, if it's not aware of it, I will stay away because it's
almost like dealing with an electric cable because you don't know
when it's going to hit you because they're not self, away
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Yeah, so I, that is really, can you guys hear me really? Quick?
00:21:00.000 --> 00:21:06.000
Ted, my my speaker queues kind of going in and out, so can you hear
me? Okay?
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Yeah, I can hear you. Fine.
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You can hear me. Okay, yeah, it's weird. Sometimes I can hear you,
and sometimes I can.
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Okay, great to just message. So we'll all pause and then we'll
start again.
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Okay.
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But also there's a lot of of time, because he was kind of set in
his ways.
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Of trying to get him to come to London, and I was always going to
brighten. I mean, look, I mean, I did my ma at Brighton, so I could
stay there. So I was like living half and half which the pain is
quite complicated. Anyway, I realized that I was putting more into
it than I was actually receiving
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Yeah.
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And I was thinking, actually, my energy is being wasted here
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Well, I love. I do think that as we get older, okay, just we just
start knowing what we want. Right?
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It's like, and so I think that's really important.
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Yeah.
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It was your fiftieth birthday, right? And so here it's your
fiftieth birthday, and he is not showing up for you, because, like
you said, he was unaware, and we I I don't feel like we're being
unkind by saying that but I do think there is
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an. It is important, no matter what your diagnosis is or what's
going on, to have that awareness of.
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You know. Okay, this is what's going on with my brain.
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And some acknowledgement of that and the impact. And that's, you
know, because that it's your fiftieth birthday, and you spend it
alone, which is sad
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And also not to be no phone call, no text
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Wow, yeah.
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No contact. And 20, I was stuck at work, and also I didn't come
back till the afternoon, because Brighton, half Marathon was on, so
he can get the bus through town.
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Apparently so
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But then
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What would you say? Let's just offer this I want.
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What? What is your advice for individuals who are diagnosed?
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Any advice in terms of what to do differently. If someone's
listening to you, because there will be people that are listing,
they're like, Hey, I'm in the dating scene, and you know, I wonder
if I'm on Tester.
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I wonder if I made each year I haven't been formally done.
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Be based on that experience, Jenny, what advice would you give to
men who are that might have the propensity to do what this
gentleman did
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Yeah.
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Well things if they're not aware you can't do anything, because,
like it's a bit you can't change their nature, because it's how
they behave.
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So I would. But if they are away, and they are kind of self
identifying or self-diagnosed, then you would.
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Behave as if you are diagnosed. Does it work?
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Because then you, if you're so, if you're aware of your behavior
and how it on impact on the others, and you have empathy with
others, then you can kind of manage it.
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But when they're not away.
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Yeah.
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And they just go crushing through your life any consideration.
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Hmm.
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Individuals like that. You just, I would advise, walk away
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Okay. So you're saying it for the person that's having the
experience with someone who's unaware.
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Hmm.
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And so what if you're with someone? My, here's my thought.
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Did you say anything to him
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Bye try to, but I wasn't. I was going through a very, very bad
time.
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Hmm.
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I, unfortunately, I had a really bad reaction to the events, so I
and one of the things we subscribe to 3 fast minds is, you've
got.
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It's a bit being like being on an airplane.
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I agree.
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You have to put the oxygen mask on yourself before you can help
anybody else, and this is also what I would advise actually is,
once you're kind of aware of your neurodiversity and what your
challenges are is you'd have to work on yourself before you go
anywhere near any
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Yeah.
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Other, individual, because you'll end up attracting the wrong
potential partner.
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Yeah.
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And, as I was saying, to him earlier as well, once you're
diagnosed, someone, you'll that bit after that first year you are
so vulnerable as an individual, because you're kind of reframing
everything annual.
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And and actually you're reframing yourself. And I think until you
go through that process and realize actually what your boundaries
are as well.
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The phone, put the boundaries. Once you get those boundaries in
place, and that, you know I this is what I want.
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This is what I don't want. Just stay, wait!
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So I've not actually
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No, I did go through a little Hindu experiment back in October,
November.
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But then I realized that I could I have anything else just like so
whatever.
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Hmm.
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And I felt so good, and I tell you why I felt really good, because
I was just full of lumin dopamine
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Yeah, yeah.
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And I was like another one. This is not good I did go like, I went
on, a couple of dates with individual but I thought, No, this is
not brought.
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But then, what? Ironically, then, what I did we had that the
disabled awareness day
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And well, I did. I transferred my focus from hinder to
Linkedin.
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So, I'll get in the same hit. It is like undying what?
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Hmm. Yup, yup, yeah. Yeah.
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No, okay. Connected with yourself, with Lean. And all these
individuals like.
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So I was actually focusing, yeah
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Oh!
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Good. Okay, let's talk about this, because this is huge, Jenny.
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So what you're saying is really important. And I do want to say
there might be individuals who say I actually really like the
person.
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I'm just so hurt that they didn't show up for me in this way.
00:27:12.000 --> 00:27:27.000
So one piece of advice that you said, you know, when, if someone's
unaware, you need to walk away, and I want to offer just as a
therapist some for those folks that are listening that say I
actually really care about the person I want to give them a chance
that's where I would say you need
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To give them feedback. It needs to be honest feedback about.
00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:31.000
This is what this is, what happened. This is what you did this is
what hurt me.
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And this this is what I want and need in a relationship for those
that choose to stay in in that with someone who perhaps isn't aware
and hasn't been diagnosed.
00:27:42.000 --> 00:27:56.000
The second thing I want to say that is really important. Just some
tips for folks that are listening, that you're saying, Jenny, when
you've been diagnosed, you are really in that phase of learning
about yourself.
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It's a total. It can be very overwhelming.
00:27:57.000 --> 00:28:20.000
So take time, take time, get support, whether it's a support group
therapist you've got like we've seen on Linkedin such a big
community of neur different folks where you're surrounded in
information support kindness and compassion so that you can figure
out especially if you're in between in the dating scene before
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You start dating, perhaps. What do I want? And what don't I
want?
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It's like, it's like, Who am I?
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Who am I? What do I want? What do I don't want?
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And then I also love that awareness for you of okay, I have this
pleasure seeking brain because I have low levels of dopamine.
00:28:50.000 --> 00:28:51.000
Okay.
00:28:51.000 --> 00:28:58.000
So, instead of doing this big, just, mindless swiping left or right
on a online app, I'm gonna actually go to Linkedin and maybe be
more productive in my connecting right, like, maybe be more
intentional about who I'm connecting with where it's like they're
people that are
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Out necessarily aren't sharks, or I don't have to sit and worry
about.
00:29:02.000 --> 00:29:03.000
I mean sometimes on Linkedin, as we all have gotten the the person
that sent like an inappropriate message.
00:29:03.000 --> 00:29:12.000
Whatever, but it's very different than a dating app.
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Yeah.
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Yup!
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So great advice. I don't know if you're aware that you're actually
giving advice to people who are, no matter what age, going into the
dating scene.
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Okay.
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Now I also want to say that I do think post divorce.
00:29:25.000 --> 00:29:29.000
It is important to give yourself time before you start dating.
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For many reasons. There's a lot of grief, I think, when we're not
ready as humans, we can literally go back into the same
relationship and attract the same person that we just got out of a
relationship with.
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If we haven't done our own work right
00:29:50.000 --> 00:29:51.000
Yeah.
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Correct. Yeah, yeah, you have to work on yourself that self
dealing, coming to terms with what went wrong, but also recognizing
what actually did work. Because there was a reason why you got
together in the first place.
00:29:59.000 --> 00:30:04.000
Yeah, I love that. I always tell couples that you're here together
in front of me for reasons so clearly clearly, there's love clearly
there's something here that keeps you together.
00:30:04.000 --> 00:30:10.000
Let's talk. Let's start there with what a attracted you to that
person! Right?
00:30:10.000 --> 00:30:20.000
Learning from that, and then also, I think, just on our end,
looking at what could I have done?
00:30:20.000 --> 00:30:36.000
Differently, too, so that when I go into a new relationship I also
am aware of what do I need?
00:30:36.000 --> 00:30:37.000
Yeah.
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Because I know that for me I need a lot of my own self care and
tools in place, so that I'm not melting down a Chris so that he has
space also to to breathe and be.
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Oh!
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And so that's really important. But I want to switch Gears just so
aware of the time.
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That's fine!
00:30:47.000 --> 00:30:49.000
And it's it goes so fast. I wanna talk about sex.
00:30:49.000 --> 00:31:00.000
So, so so you know, as we get older sometimes, we have to get more
creative.
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Yeah.
00:31:01.000 --> 00:31:05.000
Sometimes we can experience more dryness. Truly, you know, vagally,
and and so, and but I also think the beauty, as we get older is we
we I get.
00:31:05.000 --> 00:31:12.000
I'm really clear on what I like and what I don't like sexually
00:31:12.000 --> 00:31:13.000
Yes.
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And also the other thing is the sensory issues, because that was
one of the things that did my totally destroyed my marriage,
because
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It's it's like the way that somebody touches you as well.
00:31:26.000 --> 00:31:27.000
Yeah.
00:31:27.000 --> 00:31:32.000
So, for example, is what you know I've I've actually got a
fibromyalgia, and I've been diagnosed with my ability, spectrum
disorder as well.
00:31:32.000 --> 00:31:36.000
Hmm, yeah, yeah, very common.
00:31:36.000 --> 00:31:43.000
And yeah, and that's another thing I'd love to talk about, because
this is something massive.
00:31:43.000 --> 00:31:49.000
But I have to be touching a certain way, and my ex-husband I
thought you either touch me too.
00:31:49.000 --> 00:31:58.000
Lie, or too heavy, and it's like No, and then I think the worst was
because I I used to run do triathlon as well. So I've done a full
line man.
00:31:58.000 --> 00:31:59.000
By the way.
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Wow! That's amazing. Go, you
00:32:01.000 --> 00:32:04.000
Alright, I did it and do it sports for 30 years.
00:32:04.000 --> 00:32:05.000
That's amazing.
00:32:05.000 --> 00:32:12.000
My ex-husband. He was actually a lightweight Olympic roller.
00:32:12.000 --> 00:32:13.000
Wow! What
00:32:13.000 --> 00:32:20.000
So he rode to Athens, and then, when he retired, he took up.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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Try not, and then what are the things he did? He started shaping
his legs because of the swimming and stuff, but then, when he got
the regrowth, it was like cuddling up to a hedgehog and then it was
it was actually painful but then it's
00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:34.000
Like, then so now I want to help you because it it calls me
pain.
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And then, of course, he would have rejection. Okay, okay,
great.
00:32:37.000 --> 00:32:39.000
That's aivity. Yeah.
00:32:39.000 --> 00:32:51.000
And it's like, Hi Jean! I'm not gonna go into to details, but it's
like, No, I don't want you, on your name because you you I don't
like your email.
00:32:51.000 --> 00:32:52.000
Yeah.
00:32:52.000 --> 00:32:56.000
And I'm really Hudson. No touch lights, etc.
00:32:56.000 --> 00:32:57.000
And what? Yeah.
00:32:57.000 --> 00:33:01.000
Yeah. So I love that. You're bringing that up because this is
Jenny.
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Cool.
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This is huge sensory issues. I I wrote an e-book called our sexual
sensory Profile, because again, our sexual sensory profile impacts
us in the bedroom smells touch lobe.
00:33:11.000 --> 00:33:18.000
Oh, the yeah. But also the other thing is, I've got synesthesia
00:33:18.000 --> 00:33:19.000
Okay.
00:33:19.000 --> 00:33:24.000
So I actually visualize the physical sensations
00:33:24.000 --> 00:33:28.000
Wow! Say more about that, for folks that may not know about
that
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It's experiencing one sense for another. So, for example, but I
experience taste as musical notes
00:33:38.000 --> 00:33:39.000
That's amazing.
00:33:39.000 --> 00:33:44.000
And then with
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So we don't know, because I can visualize the sensations.
00:33:48.000 --> 00:33:54.000
For example, if I have an injection, I can't watch the needle,
because then I'll if I see it.
00:33:54.000 --> 00:33:55.000
Hmm.
00:33:55.000 --> 00:33:58.000
I kind of visualize you. It's like replaying a video.
00:33:58.000 --> 00:33:59.000
Yeah, yeah.
00:33:59.000 --> 00:34:06.000
I'm not. Experienced the pain as well, so to me, is like the other
thing, God!
00:34:06.000 --> 00:34:12.000
It's the looking into somebody's eyes when you're getting into it.
I just it.
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Yeah.
00:34:13.000 --> 00:34:15.000
I can't. That's really I find it really whatever.
00:34:15.000 --> 00:34:20.000
But also, if I close my eyes I can visualize it. So I don't
actually need to open my eyes
00:34:20.000 --> 00:34:23.000
Yeah, well, and you're saying such wonderful things just again.
00:34:23.000 --> 00:34:24.000
Yeah.
00:34:24.000 --> 00:34:29.000
Tips I get. So for folks you can go on my our website. Namaste.
00:34:29.000 --> 00:34:33.000
Advice to our neuro-inclusive page.
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I have my sexual sensory profile, ebook. And yeah, I have our ebook
there and then on Candace, Christian so.com I have our, my our E,
but my my ebook, I'm saying, are, I have a center.
00:34:40.000 --> 00:34:58.000
So my ebook! There, what! You're saying, though, is so important,
because if you're willing and open as a couple to talk about, I
like this type of touch, I don't.
00:34:58.000 --> 00:35:06.000
What's Yummy? What's yucky I like this touch, taste, sound, smell
the temperature, you know.
00:35:06.000 --> 00:35:07.000
Oh, yeah.
00:35:07.000 --> 00:35:10.000
I like this pressure or not. I like this type of sheets.
00:35:10.000 --> 00:35:21.000
I like the lighting to be this way. If you both can agree and
support each other, you can have a really beautiful, incredible,
sensual, sexual experience
00:35:21.000 --> 00:35:30.000
Yeah, cause I'm more, you know. I know that I'm more central, you
know, in people like for me, it's like, you know, Smm is just
completely.
00:35:30.000 --> 00:35:38.000
It's like, why would you want to hurt? Because it's like for
me?
00:35:38.000 --> 00:35:42.000
Yeah, I love that. Yeah.
00:35:42.000 --> 00:35:43.000
Yes, yes, same here.
00:35:43.000 --> 00:35:51.000
I'm very essential, so I won't. Does that make sense and it's like,
all my text is, you know, where like chatting is Scott, and it has
to feel right, because, you know, I visualize the thing.
00:35:51.000 --> 00:35:52.000
But yeah, hmm.
00:35:52.000 --> 00:36:06.000
Hi! I love it! I love that. And so so advice for folks again is to
when you're in a relationship, or your exploring sex, especially as
neur different folks, we need to be able to have a conversation
about site sound smell sensations, touch temperature taste what do
we like what do we not like with our ourselves.
00:36:06.000 --> 00:36:36.000
And with our partner, so that sex can be the most enjoyable
thing.
00:36:36.000 --> 00:36:37.000
Hmm.
00:36:37.000 --> 00:36:39.000
One of the things I've had quite an incredible healing journey over
the last almost 3 months now, and as I connect more to my own
energy, one of the things when we talk about sex is sex is very
misunderstood globally, and it's very pornified in in our culture
just the human culture the human race
00:36:39.000 --> 00:36:41.000
Yes, I agree.
00:36:41.000 --> 00:36:49.000
Has pornified sex, but if we look at it as sex being the acronym of
a sacred energy, exchange
00:36:49.000 --> 00:36:53.000
Yeah, yeah.
00:36:53.000 --> 00:36:54.000
I know so
00:36:54.000 --> 00:37:05.000
It is really profound, and that what I want to say that more than
anything, when we're looking at our sensory profile is crucial to
having a sacred energy exchange with someone, and are they in the
right mindset?
00:37:05.000 --> 00:37:17.000
And are they in the right energy? Are we? And is the setting right
for us to have that to make it what it deserves to be, instead of
just fucking?
00:37:17.000 --> 00:37:18.000
Excuse my language. But truly, instead of just buying
00:37:18.000 --> 00:37:23.000
That's fine. Yeah, but the physical.
00:37:23.000 --> 00:37:28.000
And also the other thing is the other issue being on the autistic
spectrum, it doesn't just effect.
00:37:28.000 --> 00:37:31.000
You know, individuals is a lexopenia
00:37:31.000 --> 00:37:38.000
Yeah.
00:37:38.000 --> 00:37:39.000
Yeah.
00:37:39.000 --> 00:37:40.000
Hello! I just could not get the words out, and the things.
00:37:40.000 --> 00:37:57.000
If you can't communicate, but then I know that the individuals
where I may I would say, there's 2 individuals in my life to just
get me mentally, physically, and I didn't have to communicate,
because it was there.
00:37:57.000 --> 00:38:01.000
Yeah.
00:38:01.000 --> 00:38:02.000
Yeah.
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But also the other thing is they they also smelled a particular way
as well and that's so important and and that's the one thing you
don't have when you're doing like the tinder or the the dating
sites.
00:38:08.000 --> 00:38:09.000
Yeah. Yes.
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You don't get that, and the the physical, the chemical, the energy
as well from somebody.
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I'm wise. Okay.
00:38:16.000 --> 00:38:17.000
Yes, that's true. That that's lost. That's lost with all of this
online.
00:38:17.000 --> 00:38:26.000
Be like dating and social media so that's why I also one of the
reasons why I created an ebook so that you visually could go
through it together.
00:38:26.000 --> 00:38:27.000
Hmm.
00:38:27.000 --> 00:38:32.000
It's the shortest little book, but as a couple so and we, you know,
we're doing.
00:38:32.000 --> 00:38:44.000
My partner and I are doing a web neuro. Different neurodiversity
couples costs right now, and we'll be sharing that to folks.
00:38:44.000 --> 00:38:45.000
Okay.
00:38:45.000 --> 00:38:52.000
So it's like you have a visual aid with questions, so that you
don't have to say, you know, if you're not sure but you could point
like oh, that you know I do in this description.
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I like that. And then even like seeing things, if you whether you
see it on a magazine or online, I mean, there's so much visual
stuff online that as a couple, if you feel safe enough to say you
know, gosh, in this article, it talks about this or I see this
image this is what
00:39:07.000 --> 00:39:11.000
I like, or, Wow, I like this texture right here. The silky, soft
texture.
00:39:11.000 --> 00:39:15.000
Yeah.
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Okay.
00:39:16.000 --> 00:39:17.000
But you have to feel safe. You have all of us, even if we're
autistic.
00:39:17.000 --> 00:39:21.000
Adhd. We have to feel safe to connect with someone at that
level.
00:39:21.000 --> 00:39:22.000
Oh, yeah. Hmm.
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Truly, now I get that we've got lower levels of dopamine that can
impact our our neurotransmitter or desire to seek pleasure which
can lead us down a pass.
00:39:34.000 --> 00:39:38.000
Sometimes, like you found yourself just aimlessly like tender.
00:39:38.000 --> 00:39:39.000
Okay.
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Wow. So I get that. I also get that if we can channel that to a in
a way that we can say, this is what feels good.
00:39:45.000 --> 00:39:52.000
This is this, I really like this. This is what smells good to
me.
00:39:52.000 --> 00:39:56.000
You could have a really beautiful sexual experience, no matter what
age.
00:39:56.000 --> 00:39:59.000
And as we get older we do there is more dryness.
00:39:59.000 --> 00:40:01.000
Maybe we've got more aches and pains. So positioning, we have to
get creative with it.
00:40:01.000 --> 00:40:11.000
Using humor. I mean, if you feel safe, though with your partner it
can be really beautiful.
00:40:11.000 --> 00:40:15.000
So, Jenny, this has been an awesome conversation. Yeah, go
ahead.
00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:16.000
No go ahead!
00:40:16.000 --> 00:40:26.000
What's that? Nope? No good. No, I can say the other thing is, is
that hyper awareness as well?
00:40:26.000 --> 00:40:27.000
Yeah. Oh.
00:40:27.000 --> 00:40:30.000
It is like, you know, if you hear a little sound, you know, when
I've had my daughter with me it was like the mummy rate, and it's
like, I just like Pops you out. It's like, Oh, and then Hello!
00:40:30.000 --> 00:40:50.000
Yeah, so that's another thing that you have to get really creative
when there's children, no matter how old the children are, because
if your child's 31, we have family coming into town this weekend
and one of our daughters, stepped over to me, but I say, my
daughters, because that's how it feels just
00:40:50.000 --> 00:40:54.000
So I just love them is in their thirties. She's in her
thirties.
00:40:54.000 --> 00:41:00.000
And so, yeah, you have to get creative and or or you wait
right?
00:41:00.000 --> 00:41:01.000
Yeah.
00:41:01.000 --> 00:41:02.000
But if they're living with you, that can be really challenging,
it's like couples have to get really creative.
00:41:02.000 --> 00:41:15.000
So again, I think, but I do wanna say that for those of us that
have neurologically different brains, a lot of us do like sex.
00:41:15.000 --> 00:41:22.000
A lot of us want sex, but it has to be in the right setting, and it
has to be the right sensory experience.
00:41:22.000 --> 00:41:31.000
And that really is key. And we know. And also key, we absolutely
have to feel emotionally and physically safe with a person and
sexually safe, sexually safe
00:41:31.000 --> 00:41:45.000
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, then that later. And also the fact, you know that
in its intimacy I'm sensuality.
00:41:45.000 --> 00:41:46.000
Hello. Yes.
00:41:46.000 --> 00:42:00.000
And and also I love how but it has to be a right person, and it's
like so if it's on like with my bed, I've got to do they at least
plank or wasted blanket and a fake, for because I I made that kind
of hot but even in
00:42:00.000 --> 00:42:06.000
That sounds amazing. That sounds amazing. Same here.
00:42:06.000 --> 00:42:08.000
The summer. I love that because I need that that pressure
00:42:08.000 --> 00:42:12.000
Yeah, yeah, me, too.
00:42:12.000 --> 00:42:14.000
And it's like, yeah.
00:42:14.000 --> 00:42:18.000
Well, and some folks need pressures. Sex, too. And so there's also
a fine line there.
00:42:18.000 --> 00:42:22.000
You have to feel really safe, you know, to have that again.
00:42:22.000 --> 00:42:25.000
But there's choice in it, I think sex can be really beautiful.
00:42:25.000 --> 00:42:28.000
I do one of the reasons why I was inspired to do this podcast.
00:42:28.000 --> 00:42:32.000
Is, I wanted to dispel all the myths around autistic people, not
wanting sex or liking sex.
00:42:32.000 --> 00:42:39.000
We we enjoy it, we love it, we like it. No, not every autistic
person does. So I'm not.
00:42:39.000 --> 00:42:42.000
I don't want to over generalize, but I can speak for myself.
00:42:42.000 --> 00:42:45.000
I love and enjoy sex with the right sensory experience. The right
person where I feel safe.
00:42:45.000 --> 00:42:59.000
Sexually, emotionally, physically, in a setting where I feel like I
can let go and I'm heard and and can be understood, seen and known,
and have someone that's very loving and kind.
00:42:59.000 --> 00:43:09.000
And I do think that more. I want more people to be able to talk
about this, because those of us with neurologically different
brains.
00:43:09.000 --> 00:43:16.000
It's not black and white. There's this this assumption that, or
asexual, or we're against being sexual.
00:43:16.000 --> 00:43:17.000
And and that's not true, especially as we get older, as older
women.
00:43:17.000 --> 00:43:23.000
We're very sensual. We want to be sexual.
00:43:23.000 --> 00:43:26.000
No, not everyone. I want to honor that. But you and I are.
00:43:26.000 --> 00:43:29.000
It just has to be in the right setting, and with the right
person.
00:43:29.000 --> 00:43:30.000
So Jenny, thank you so much for coming on today.
00:43:30.000 --> 00:43:38.000
This was delightful!
00:43:38.000 --> 00:43:39.000
There is always always yeah. But
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No up absolutely loved it. I'd love to speak to you again, because
there's so much more that I but I think also regarding the
menoples.
00:43:47.000 --> 00:43:53.000
And you're a divergent women, because this is a really big thing,
especially in Britain.
00:43:53.000 --> 00:44:02.000
At the moment, and, in fact, on Monday, at 4 30 GMT.
00:44:02.000 --> 00:44:03.000
Wow!
00:44:03.000 --> 00:44:06.000
Part of it is gonna actually have a debate, an Adhd and the
like.
00:44:06.000 --> 00:44:09.000
The lack of diagnosis on what? What the problems are.
00:44:09.000 --> 00:44:16.000
Yeah.
00:44:16.000 --> 00:44:17.000
Yeah, absolutely.
00:44:17.000 --> 00:44:26.000
And there's been a petition now that's gonna be actually
fascinating, because there, I call it the last generation, because
there's so many wonderful individuals out there with the right
help, the rights were caught the right management of conditions
etc.
00:44:26.000 --> 00:44:33.000
Will be fine, and we got so much to contribute because of the way
that we think the way to feel.
00:44:33.000 --> 00:44:40.000
And but we all gradually we making a difference, and we are making
changes, you know, through this community, through Linkedin.
00:44:40.000 --> 00:44:43.000
Oh, absolutely brilliant! But that's not
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:52.000
Yeah, we have a large community. We do have a large community which
we need, so that our voices are heard right?
00:44:52.000 --> 00:44:58.000
So that we can advocate for ourselves, because all too often the
well meaning psychiatrist.
00:44:58.000 --> 00:45:05.000
Doctors, psychologists, neuro psychologists are doing the
diagnosing or actually miss diagnosing.
00:45:05.000 --> 00:45:11.000
Too often, we're diagnosed as borderline dependent personality,
disorder.
00:45:11.000 --> 00:45:12.000
Not given a proper diagnosis
00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:18.000
Oh, I think I should be. Yeah, I did go through that because I went
through what they call the multi-disciplinary team process with
your Gp, like that person, literally the red button.
00:45:18.000 --> 00:45:26.000
Oh, you work with the OTS, everything! And then I was referred
to.
00:45:26.000 --> 00:45:36.000
From primary mental health to secondary mental health, and then,
unfortunately, when you go that boot, they have only got 3
diagnosis available, which is schizophrenia, bipolar, and the
boardline personality.
00:45:36.000 --> 00:45:39.000
Yeah, wow, wow, yeah, yeah, that's ridiculous.
00:45:39.000 --> 00:45:47.000
This is how it isn't written. So I oh, an after 45 min a Cpn said,
Oh, your bipolar!
00:45:47.000 --> 00:45:51.000
I want to subscribe and psychotics. And I just went actually.
00:45:51.000 --> 00:45:58.000
No, I'm not, but I'm not individuals. Huh!
00:45:58.000 --> 00:45:59.000
Oh, my! Gosh!
00:45:59.000 --> 00:46:02.000
Spent between 2 and 5 years on lithium, because they've been
diagnosed with that, and like not pushed back.
00:46:02.000 --> 00:46:04.000
Hey? But it's diagnosed. Yep.
00:46:04.000 --> 00:46:11.000
And also what's the reason being is because of most modest
regulation, has been taken out of Dsm.
00:46:11.000 --> 00:46:16.000
5, where before the Dsm. Full included emotional disregulation.
00:46:16.000 --> 00:46:19.000
But anything emotional regulation is schizophrenia.
00:46:19.000 --> 00:46:23.000
Hold on personality.
00:46:23.000 --> 00:46:28.000
I didn't realize that
00:46:28.000 --> 00:46:29.000
Yeah.
00:46:29.000 --> 00:46:37.000
I did not realize that. So because Adhd, a big trait of Adhd is
emotional dysregulation, so that whoever is, whoever's created
whoever's on the panel that creates a diagnostic manual for
clinicians it just needs to be an
00:46:37.000 --> 00:46:42.000
Overhaul needs to be done, and neurological conditions. I don't
think, should actually be in there.
00:46:42.000 --> 00:46:52.000
I think there should be a separate manual for neural conditions
that's researched by people who actually have these neurological
differences.
00:46:52.000 --> 00:46:59.000
And instead of people just guessing or making a decision, the Dsm
is very political, a lot of people look at it as the Bible, and
it's not.
00:46:59.000 --> 00:47:00.000
It's a field manual, it's a guide.
00:47:00.000 --> 00:47:04.000
But Jenny, we're out of time. My goodness, we could talk for
ever.
00:47:04.000 --> 00:47:05.000
It's been amazing. So thank you so much. Yeah, thank you.
00:47:05.000 --> 00:47:09.000
I know. Yeah, thank you. Thank you. Really appreciate it. Okay.
00:47:09.000 --> 00:47:20.000
So much, and to all of you that are here, listening and watching
now, because we're doing it this way as well please be tender with
yourselves.
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We all deserve a little more tenderness. So I I just want to put
that out there in the world that love is medicine.
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And if if we all can just come from that space, we will heal, and
the world will truly just be the most amazing place.
00:47:30.000 --> 00:47:33.000
So thank you. Everybody have a fabulous rest of your week until
next time.
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Bye.